Religious Prescription
Today, along with a prescription for pill-I also got one for religion. I’m not sure how I should feel about that, or where to begin worrying about that. Do I have something the doctor doesn’t want to tell me about, does my doctor spend his weekends going door to door converting people, maybe modern medicine is merely big business and truly does no good.
The point was to find myself. I didn’t want to interrupt and state that the closest I’ve come to finding myself was several years ago. I was quite stoned and remember hearing the trees singing. Several birds found it odd that I could hear it as well, thankfully they didn’t pull a Hitchcock on me.
More seriously though, the problem is I ‘think’ about religion and life far too much. I can’t just accept it at face value. And I don’t think they’ve perfected electro-shock therapy to the point it will do to my mind what a strong enough magnet will do to my computer. I get numerous religious emails daily, I enjoy all of them to some point. Christianity focuses too much on Parables and Judism too much on laws but I try to find some measure of enlightenment every day.
On an intellectual level, I’m not even sure that original thought [see original thought] actually exists. If original thought doesn’t exist, then what does that say about my existence? I’m a thinker, even if I’m probably wrong with 9 out of 10 semi-original view points-I can’t get around that. It’s difficult for me to take anything at face value, though I see that all people need faith at some point [see my religions views?], for anything with importance I give it thought. Faith to me is blind. I regularly engage in blind faith on basic issues, like a door opening; or that the sun will rise. I’m not sure if it’s possible for me to have blind faith on anything with importance or meaning. I often see religion as something that emerged out of humankinds need to explain the world around them. How horrifying would it be to instantly become a conscious being, a rock couldn’t be a rock, it would be an unknown. Clouds were not clouds, they are unknowns. If consciousness suddenly emerged (probably not) in humanity-those first human beings must have been patently insane.
Damn I wish McCain would run for president in 2008! (he’s on hardball), makes me feel happy about calling myself a republican. Maybe if I find myself via politics heh, then finding myself via religion would come easier.
I’ll probably try some Yoga and maybe look harder at finding either a Universal Unitarian or Ba’hai group that seems more serious about it. I want the freedom of accepting all religions, but the structure on how we go about understanding the meaning of all religions. Hard to find something that is very free when it comes to the source but very serious when it comes to the meaning.
